Imperfect Reflection
My name is Alyx and I love Jesus Christ. I love people and i do my best to be the best person i can be.
This life is not about you.
Words: Something That's Been On My Mind For Quite Some Time.
Is that every Christian, or almost every Christian I know, including me (when I had faith in God). Comes to the realization that faith, and prayer, and reading your Bible can only comfort you to a certain level.
Because Christianity, and faith in God lacks a physical being to truly comfort you….
Casey, you know i love you, but seriously.. I cant tell you how many times i HAVE found comfort by reading my Bible… praying to God. marveling at the fact of where i was, how much pain i was in, versus where i am now with Jesus. the only time i hit a snag in that comfort or what not, is when i, myself, have pulled away from God. when i’ve decided that i can handle something on my own. so, from experience, you not being comforted by the Bible is your own fault. Of course God is not a physical being, thats why we need to have faith in what is unseen. but we have Christian brothers and sisters put in our lives to be there to comfort us. to speak truth into our lives when the devil is there trying to speak lies and uncertainty into you. I’m not trying to offend you either, but i needed to stick up for my God.. its so selfish that all you could think about was how God wasn’t there for you… God sent His Son to die for you… I’m sorry, but i don’t care how much hurt i endure or how uncomfortable i get in my lifetime because no matter what might happen to me is nothing compared to what Christ did for me. and that’s why my life is a living sacrifice for Him. but you know, this isn’t for everyone. I love you Casey, and i wish you all the best. I do. I’m sorry to be so straighforward.
Its these super late nights when i have to be up at 6 in the morning and i cant sleep and i decide to get on facebook and look at old pictures and happen upon ones where i can see just how dark and hurting and just ugly i was no matter how beautiful the picture. they bring up pain.. and things i havent let go. things that haunt me cause i can’t believe that i was the way i was. i let them haunt me cause im scared to go back there again. im scared cause i dont want to hurt everyone around me again. im scared because that is my true nature. to suffer and make everyone suffer with me. unknowingly or knowingly. it doesnt matter. id be right there… if it wasn’t for Jesus. id be right there, repeating the same old mistakes. the same old sins. id be with the same guy. in the same place. doomed to repeat the past over and over and over again. id be doomed to make sure that i would hold everyone back with me just so i wouldnt be alone again. Jesus filled the void that was a black hole just sucking in everything. sucking in all the light.. all the good. He filled me up. picked me back up and put me back on my feet again. i hated myself. He loves me. He loves me through and through. He will never leave me. If i fall, He picks me back up again. He holds me. Keeps me safe in the storms. I will run back to Him always. He is the love of my life. He’s the answer of all the unanswered questions in life. what’s the meaning of life? Jesus. He’s the driving force of my life.
“We don’t just commit sin. Apart from God, we are sinful. Our problem is not just what we do; it’s who we are without His nature.”
When Did Your Heart Go Missing? // Rooney
oh nostalgia
woah throwback
I miss what this song reminds me of.
I named my dog after this band…
(via guerni-ca)
(via praywithoutceasing)
I don’t want to “have it all”, I simply want You. That in itself is greater in comparison to anything else I can acquire on this earth.
(via praywithoutceasing)
(via will-laze)
